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April 9th, 2007 ]

Europe was life changing.
that is all.

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March 28th, 2007 ]

Sticks and stones may break my bones but only HE will hurt me.
Rough, rough day.

Europe in a few hours.
I'm anxious, excited, nervous, antsy and completely A.D.D.

Be back on the 7th.

on a happier note... david<3


March 24th, 2007 ]

5 days until I get to isolate myself from this crumbling society. Or maybe it's just a select few.. well, whatever.
I see them crumbling and destroying eachother. This time, I will sit back and watch.

Cappies is pain. But, it's good wholesome pain. Four shows in one weekend, with homework, essays, packing, probably the stupidest carwash in the entire world and having time to breathe seems impossible. 

The satisfaction of leaving this city keeps me going with a thriving motivation. 

I guess I should prepare myself for World War III, because it's coming and fortunatley, this time...I can just say "told ya so."


March 20th, 2007 ]


March 15th, 2007 ]
Why must people degrade themselves?
And go from person to person lusting them..?
Stop whoring yourself. It's not cute. And if it's helping your ego, then that's pathetically desperate. Or desperatley pathetic.

I heard he most disturbing thing today in my entire life. This girl in my class, who talks about her sex life daily says
"I think I might be pregnant.. punch me in the stomach a few times," and literally had three or four guys punch her in the stomach.

Are you kidding me? AHHHHHHHH.

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March 14th, 2007 ]
Emotional roller coasters keep life interesting.

But, I am happy to say today was the best I've felt in a while.

I feel stronger and better. I feel invincible and happy. I feel like I have my head on straight, I'm focused and now I can appreciate the beauty of life.

Life is beautiful, isn't it?

But like Brian said.. who will join our crusade? It takes one to lead a revolution, but a bunch of brave hearts to follow.

March 13th, 2007 ]
Life is a gift.
Take it.
Love it.
Live it.

I know I am.
Like Brian said..
"Let the things that happened today stay in today. Move on and live again tomorrow."

March 8th, 2007 ]
R.I.P Jon Campinizzi

Although I did not know him all that well, he was a familiar face and my prayers and blessings go out to his family and close friends.

I guess when things like this occur in life, there's no real answer as to why it happened. It also puts things into perspective and makes you realize that silly things like heartbreak and animosity are totally insignificant in life.

Life is a gift. We are given it and we are able to manipulate it anyway we choose. 

I think I may be over all this insignificant pain I'm feeling.

Good luck at the funeral, everyone. Be strong for his family. My prayers are with you all.

March 8th, 2007 ]
I'm done being angry.
I'm done feeling sorry for myself.
Europe awaits and new experiences are pulling me in.
For all the friends that have been by my side, I value your friendship and I thank you.
For all of you that have felt pushed and pulled all ways, I'm sorry and I will personally try my hardest to remove the animosity and awkward tension.

I am a survivor.

On a strange, yet exciting note..

My parents are terrified of my devestation and are making me go to Disney to try and bring some fun back into my life. It should be fun, I guess.. although Disney is always temporary happiness. It is the happiest celebration on earth, right....?

March 7th, 2007 ]
You all know what has happened to me in the last few days.
So, there's no point in announcing it.
I never thought I would take it so hard.
I haven't eaten or slept in 3 days and I am deteriorating.
It seems like he is a different person.
Never in my life, would I have imagined him to turn out the way he did.
I feel like there's no point in living.

I never thought a song would be SO perfect for my emotions.
But every single last word to this song describes how I am feeling.
I still love him.
And I will always will.
I pray that he misses me as much as I miss him.
I want him back.
Please God, I don't ask for much.. how about just answering my prayer, this one time?

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
and just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm ok, but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you every where I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder
Gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret, but I know

If I could do it over
I would trade, give away, all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken
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